runnin round barefoot: March 2011

I don't know why I've had Mother Theresa's quotes on my mind lately, but they seem to help me! There is one that I can't stop thinking of... it goes something like this:

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway

There's not really much else to say. I could finish this post right here! but i just have been thinking a lot about people i just "dislike" in my life which to be honest i can only think of one in particular. I mentioned him awhile ago on my blog. He is now engaged to the girl that was sitting inside that night I waited on his porch for 3 hours. His engagement pictures popped up on my facebook newsfeed... and we aren't even friends. I am counting my blessings that i'm not engaged right now, but it's still difficult. I know it's old news and I've moved on to bigger and better things (literally)... I can't help but feel so much hatred towards him. So I decided that everytime i feel hate towards him that I will pray for him. I'm not gonna lie... my prayers for him aren't very sincere... but I just have to be grateful for what I've learned and forgive and forget that part of my life. for good.

I know this is all old news, but it just helps to write about it and get it off my chest. I am currently dating someone AMAZING and am so grateful to have Nick in my life. He does happen to live in the same apartment complex as "the hated" did...and it's the same set up... so when I was having a hard time last night at Nick's... i found myself for the second time crying in front of the "mirror". I'm done letting it affect me. I have more compassion for those who are emotionally hurt by somebody. I never would understand if I hadn't gone through it. It has lasting affects that I never imagined. From this moment on, I feel if I ever come across someone who has been affected in a similar way I would do anything in my power to help that person... because it's a pain that you can't describe.

I think in our lives we go through things that we can never explain or express to people. I don't write about my life to have people feel sorry for me or to sound like a broken record with talking about something that impacted my life a lot... i write to help myself realize how incredibly lucky and blessed I am.. and that life really is good! i have NO reason to complain.

I wanta add to Mother Theresa's list:

You might hate someone more than ever... pray for them anyway.

we'll see how well it goes:)

I decided that I need to be better at keeping my blog updated! So here is a recap of a few events the past couple months..

Nick took me to the Car show... he almost passed over when he saw this! such a fun weekend with this boy!

The other day we went shooting with Nick's roommates... loved this!

After we jumped in!

So... our apartment complex has what is called "Polar bear PLUNGE!" basically.. you jump in the pool in the middle of february and swim a full lap! Yes... 39 degrees!